Skipping New Year Resolution
First of all, you may not know that it is the worst time for allergies in Austin right now. Cedar pollens are affecting people's life in a big way, including mine. My nose often runs like a leaking faucet. I have tried many different ways to deal with it, but I have no luck in turning it off. Allergy medication from the counter dries me up so much that it would cause me to have the skin allergy, which is not an excellent outcome at all. On top of that, I have also tried the natural remedies from Wholefoods; it occasionally helps, but it is so random that I am not even sure. Therefore, my only new year's resolution is to get healthy. No matter how ambitious you can be, without a healthy body, you won't be able to achieve what you have hoped or dreamed. While allergies are clouding my mind, I am still trying to take notes and write down ideas or thoughts to help me figure out my next step.
While reviewing 2016 and making plans for 2017, I like to allow myself to ponder freely and openly. I tend to be too careful and conservative when it comes to creativity. Thus, it is important to remind myself of my weakness and find ways to overcome them. I would sit down and write down all the ideas that came to my mind. It might sound crazy or impossible, but who knows? Looking back on the last ten years of my life, I certainly didn't plan and live accordingly to my original ideas. Things came up, and I would have to take action to overcome whatever challenges took me by surprise. Writing down random ideas help me to prepare for unknowns. It is like doing stretching before lifting weights.
After collecting my thoughts, I would group and organize them. The grouping process helps me to be more productive. It shows me how I can simultaneously work on multiple projects. For some, I may have to focus on one at a time. With pre-planning, I can spend more time on making things happen instead of wasting time doubting myself and overthinking my projects. During the grouping process, I would also expand my ideas and branch out possibilities. That gave me an opportunity to challenge myself further before committing to something that may seem easy and too structural.
Thinking and organizing were just the first steps. Next, I would need to make a decision on what to do and what not to. Committing to a plan can be intimidating. What if I couldn't achieve the goal? What if I realized there were other better options down the road? I should know better that spending time predicting failures is the worst choice to utilize my time and energy. Yes, I feel vulnerable when it comes to failing. Coming from Asia, with my background and culture, I simply don't have the appetite for failure. Still, whenever I failed, I learned. Great lessons often come in the most unexpected timing. All I can do is allow myself to open up to the learning experience. Failing sounds painful, but it is more painstaking to keep looking back at failures. Sometimes I hate missing on opportunities that came my way. Unfortunately, that happened, and it definitely will occur again in the future. I remember John Lennon once said, “Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end.” I believe that better and more opportunities will come if I worked hard enough. I need to tell myself that it is ok not to be in everything. For 2017, I only want to work hard, face whatever challenges that hit me in the face and move on from whatever or whoever are dragging me down.
This rant is purely my self-conversation, and I wish you good luck in 2017!